I'm a pretty exhausted girl! Getting this virtual garage sale ready took a lot more work than I thought it would, and I'm STILL finding things I could put on my digital blanket on the yard, but then I would never stop and the lawn would be too cluttered and people wouldn't be able to see what they like!
Oh, a song just came on random and is my You Can Do This super inspiration song. Thank you God for such serendipity!
So, let go, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
Can I just say that I really love all of you? If you're reading this, these words on a screen on the floor of my half-packed bedroom, my hair in a no-nonsense ponytail that swishes over my shoulder, anyway, I love you. I appreciate you. All the little likes and comments and virtual hugs. The past few months have been full of so much pain & frustration for me...having to stay in bed for weeks, or my hands too swollen to draw or paint.
I know how amazingly lucky I am to be able to make a little living off my art, that others actually like -- no, love -my work enough to commission paintings or buy big ones and little ones.
Let me tell you a secret -- bed rest is boring. But I shared my experience, and continue to do so as I start physical therapy. And all those little clicked red hearts or short messages meant the world to me. You were my connection to what is outside the room, that life still thrives and dreams and dares. I haven't felt very brave lately, but YOU have helped me build the courage to do all this.
There's a whole story about that journal page above that I have yet to type out, but that'll have to wait. For now, know this -- I have truly experienced what it feels like to have a full soul. To be peace and gratitude and just...wow. I don't know if you've had one, but it shifts something in your heart. Mine has been so protected for so long, it had forgotten some stuff. But I know that there's so much love in the world, and I can give it freely, so I give it to YOU.
(And as someone who has experienced depression & scary stuff, I must say, if you need to talk, email me right now or whenever you feel brave. I am here. For reals. Promise.)