{my own naivete (reverb10 - 20)}


Beyond Avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)

This one’s a no-brainer: get health insurance.

I’ve battled in this particular war for awhile, now, going without for years on end, gaining some when working. This last dry spell is due to my own naivete and nothing else, an expensive (health-wise) lesson to learn.

But I never got on it. Never researched plans or looked over data for public options. Never asked for help or called an insurance agent. Time and time again, I was asked about my progress, reminded I needed to do something about this.

And I didn’t.

I was scared. And yes, there is a certain degree of shame; even though I have applied and paid for plans and gotten rejected, not because of anything I’ve done, but because of my health (which I do as much as I can to keep as good as I can!), I still feel as though I’ve failed because I can’t get anything. I am willing to work and pay for insurance, and instead, I must go and apply for a social aide because they’re the only ones who will give me a chance.

I hope.

(And of course, I am afraid they won’t, that I’ll have tried all the options, have done all I can, and will still be a forgotten statistic paying over $250 a month on medications.)

I’ve started the process here in Arizona, and I think, no, I WILL, finish it. And figure this all out. It is something that bothers me all the time, and I’ve gotta stop making excuses and just do it!