Ahh. The pitfalls of fibro-fog...
This morning, I had my last appointment for Social Security Disability. One of the major effects of FMS (Fibromyalgia Syndrome) is fibro-fog, where short-term memory just...fizzles out. I remember reading one woman's message on a message board, "I couldn't remember where I put the remote, but I just had it an hour ago. I found it in the freezer." (Paraphrasing, as it was years ago) Any-hooo...it means that I need to write things down continuouly in order to remember them (one reason it takes me forever to send out mail art!); I covered my art table with kraft paper so I could scrawl my notes on there as it's usually the first surface I see every morning.
Alas, this has been an ongoing thing I actually became a 'zinester to write about, as I feel more people should know how difficult it is for disabled people to get on disability, find health insurance, etc. So this morning, I set out, tired, aching, and out of pain medication, and....
...went down the wrong road.
Allow me to explain: I was on 59/12 heading south, and at a point, they split. I continued down 59. Around 10:20, ten minutes before my apointment, I called my brother and asked him which way we went last time (as I'm not supposed to drive myself anywhere longer than 45 minutes; he couldn't drive me this morning, though, which is why I'm in bed), and he said I was supposed to follow 12.
I ended up not going, coming home, and crashing for about two hours. Now, I can feel the barameter going in my knees (osteo-arthritis, and no, it's not juvilial onset...I really am 23 with arthritis), my back hurts from the driving, and my right shoulder, jarred in the car accident two weeks ago, keeps me from using my right arm for long periods of time (try journaling without it!). I'm hoping I can call and reschedule, but knowing Social Security, it'll put another month or so of waiting on my decision, and I don't think the psych eval is that important for my file.
Today, I've been working on and off on a project I've nicknamed "Goddess Box;" I want it to represent the four elements and act as a shrine on my wall, as I need some religious faith in my life. I stopped because it required pliers and I'm kinda tired. Alas. I prepped a journal page this morning -- I might go sit out on the porch and scribble.
I'm also selling some stuff. I wanted to put the books up here because they're art books. I'm open to trades or if you'd like to buy one...I'm usually pretty fair about price. I've gotten hit with fees and had to get some medication refilled, so I don't even have enough to go get some tea and hang out at a cafe...not that I'd want to, today! Laying in bed listening to music seems enough for me today....let me know if you're interested in any of these books.
Email me at kiraboshi[at]gmail.com
Click! They get bigger! I'll wait a few days before throwing them up on eBay...